Pizza Break

Years ago in a mindset far far away... So I ate the oatmeal, that is about 300 calories. I had the yogurt too, that is about 110, about a hundred I guess. Then I ate the fish and the almonds, that was another 400. I'm not going to count the spinach leaves, I will leave those out, well, I did have some hummus with them, OK another 100. Now, the total is.... The mind races too quick to interpret, the numbers like a Rain Man example playing inside the mind. All numbers, their quantities, their times, their circumstances, the feeling afterwards, what I had last week, what I had before that, the last time I felt this way, all thoughts the mind is forced to remember. The mind can do all of this because it is sacred. It is sacred of losing. Losing control. Losing the competition of life. Losing this facade of self that only the same mind that controls, sees. "Hello, I am Luke and I enjoy reading books, writing, and I go to the gym a little bit." (insert awkward laugh) ...

Fire, brimstone, a torturous, never-ending scene where one is completely alone, being ripped apart over and over, one thousand times one thousand times. A snake crawling in and out of oneself, unsettling, pain, loneliness, sadness, in all, the absence of all that is good. Hell is a place where one goes who does not accept Jesus Christ as the flesh version of God who died on the cross for our sins. More intimately than that, our father, God and the God-man, Jesus are the utmost high and accepting them into your heart creates salvation and thus allows one to enter the gates of Heaven after death. There will be no more ramblings about this not being a real thing, for this is what it is. Men do not like to talk about Hell, we'd rather discuss Heaven. We would rather sit and idealize Heaven as a place full of humanly pleasures. Myself, have made many references to a constant buffet full of donuts, pizza, ice cream, and other worldly foods I have never experienced. I imagine eating, ...